Last night, while doing a little cleanup in the living room, I watched a movie called "Yankee Doodle Dandy", starring James Cagney. It was, and is, one of my all time favorite movies.
I got that feeling again.
I can't really describe it - anymore than I could describe what Love feels like. But it's as real as Love and as welcome as Love and it comes to me rarely.
Sometimes I see things, or hear things, or smell things, that cause me to go back, in my head and heart and chest, to when I was a little boy. I FEEL things in me that I felt then. Things, it seems, I felt all the time when I was young. Things, it seems, I stopped feeling, somewhere along the way. Except sometimes, now, I feel those things again.
Last night it was Cagney singing "I'm A Yankee Doodle Dandy". I felt it - I felt like I did when I was a kid and he sang that song.
I wish I could describe what it feels like. I wish I could keep that feeling going forever. I guess I'm just a big kid at heart and this is how Mother Nature chooses to remind me of that fact. I think it's how she tells me I don't have to grow up if I don't want to.
And I don't.